Okay, I know I said I'd start doing video blogs, but this isn't the type of thing I feel comfortable talking about on video. This is mainly to clear my mind about what's kind of bothering me.

Okay, so I'm sitting up in my bed at 5:22 in the morning on my birthday. I just got back from dropping my dad off at work. On the way we had a talk the whole the way there. Well, as usual, it was more of him talking and me listening. The topics ranged from the housing market to the past during Carter's administration and the economic crisis back then.

Well, on the housing market he was talking about how the government was taking over two big mortgage companies, Fannie Mae and Freddi Mac (which I already thought was government run. I guess real estate school failed me, or either I slacked off like I did in high school. but I digress). And he was saying he doesn't see why the government doesn't just bail out the homeowners so that way they keep their homes, and the lenders still get paid. So it would be a win win situation, sort of. But Idk. I don't know the whole story on the thing, so I really don't have an opinion on the issue yet.

Then he talked about how it was about to get real hot in the house soon because the AC wasn't going to be on for a while because last month's electric bill was over $300, and he only makes about $400 something at Home Depot, and the real estate business isn't really popping off right now, of course. So that's affecting both of my parents income, and myself as well. He also said it was probably going to get cold in the winter too unless something changes drastically. And of course one of the first things that's going to go in order to save money is the cable. No big deal. I don't watch much tv anyways because they didn't subscribe to the channels I watch anyways (discovery, national geo. animal planet, etc.) And the shows I really want to watch (Stargate Atlantis and Family Guy mainly) I have all of the complete seasons on my computer or on wixi.com. Plus, I'm going to be on campus soon anyways, so the heat/cold and cable issues won't really affect me. But it would affect the rest of my fam because both of my sisters will be at home next year. So idk what they're going to do. All I can say I guess is good luck. At least I know they'll be able to eat every night.

Then he talked about how if we were going to take out loans then we need to do it today so it could get approved before Aug. 5th bc that's when his credit score would go down due to not paying some bills like credit cards, and crap. So now I'm realizing I need to do that crap. Then he started saying how unless he gets a second job soon something bad was going to happen within the next month or two. What bad things, he wouldn't say, but he got me really worried about the house and the fam and all of that. Then he was like I need to find a steady income job bc when school starts, I'm basically on my own. I'm not really worried about it because I do have my side business which should bring in enough money to be able to support my basic needs while I'm campus. But I'm still trying to get a decent paying job on or around campus if Best Buy doesn't call me back.

But I still can't get my mind off the thing he said when he said something bad would happen soon. I hope nigga ain't talking about losing the house. Idk what I'd do. I'd honestly turn to a life of crime to help out if I knew it would pay well. But idk. I guess all I can do is continue to hope things improve and try to take and chance possible to make it happen.

Man, that whole conversation started because this nigga wanted to wish me a happy birthday. I wish he had just said happy birthday and left it at that. But no, he wanted to add "sorry we can't do much for your birthday, but you know things are tight, but I hope you find some way to enjoy it, etc."  Now he has me worrying about house payments, and whether I'm going to have a meal to eat at least once a day while I'm on campus. HOPEFULLY this house I have listed sells before I go back to school. My mom found an interested buyer who wants to purchase it, and possibly even all cash. That would be so fucking awesome. That would take care of most if not all of my tuition.


I was going to type about my views and thoughts on love/my love life because I heard that Fergie song "Clumsy" and it got me to thinking about my love life and what not. But now, I don't even feel like it. I think getting that above issue off of my chest was enough for the night. But just note, although I am single, I do have my eye on a certain female at State. I'm hoping something comes from that. Realistically, I'm sure nothing will, but it's always fun to dream from time to time. right?

Now I'm turning out the lights and finishing season 2 of Stargate Atlantis and hoping my sister's and my birthday goes well. Ugh, I still have to get her a gift. I think I'm going to give her a rain check valid for 6 months. Not like she'll be the first to get one. q(-__-)p


Sorry for any typos, it's late and I'm not going back to correct them.

I think I'm going to start doing video blogs, (yes, Aubree, I'm jacking your style). This isn't just because I'm too lazy to write one, it's also because- who am I kidding? It's 98% because I'm too lazy to keep writing blogs.
But yeah, expect those soon.

Okay, perhaps i wasn't being ignored like i previously thought. It took a while, but she finally responded, and right when I had said fuck it. Maybe something might pop off. Maybe I'll make a much needed new friend. Who knows? But I'll sure have fun finding out. q(^_^)p

First and foremost, I wanna say FUCK YOU, NEEK FOR THAT GAY ASS BULLETIN! Muh fucka!
It's cool. I'm get back at you some way or another.


That's it, good bye.

Now I'm REALLY going to go plant that tree.

Sooooo, today my ma woke me up at 9:15 to go out and cut the grass. That really really sucked because I had just said good night to my homie and rolled over under my covers at 8:22 a.m. So I got maybe about half an hour-45 minutes of sleep. No bueno, especially when I had to be in the hot sun cutting grass. When she woke me up, it took about half an hour just to really get my senses together. I was walking around the basement like a zombie, not knowing what the fuck I was doing. It honestly felt like I was outside of my body for most of the time I was walking around my house this morning.
Finally I ate some breakfast and was about to cut the grass when my pops says don't cut it because it's wet. I was so relieved. I was so about to go get back in my bed and sleep for a few hours. NAH, NIGGA! This nigga had other plans. This dude wanted to go pull up the weeds that had crept up around the mailbox, the bushes, and the tree in the middle of the yard.
Man, I was sweating like a something-that-sweats-a-lot. Well, not really. I don't think I sweat that much when I work. But you get the point. At least it's not as hot as it's been for the past few days. So it makes working outside more tolerable.
I'm currently on a lunch break, then me the pops are going back out to plant a tree.


On a related note, as I was walking to the backyard to dump some weeds, I passed by the drainage ditch and smelt something foul. I looked in there and saw a cat. At first I thought it was just resting there (disgusting place to rest, but whatever), then I saw about half it's body was crushed or something.
Here's a picture:
 
(I'll try to take a better quality pic and upload it when I go back out)

So I return to the front yard and tell my pops about it because I'm sure he would want to know so he can decide what to do with it.
This nigga asked me, "So you gonna pick it up and give it a proper burial?"
I hit him with one of them stale faces.


Nigga, fuck out of here with that bull shit.


But I'm out. Gotta plant a tree now.

well, I has new glasses!
My shits finally came in, well, they actually came in yesterday, but I found out too late. But, I picked them up today.

They felt heavy as fuck when I first put them on. Plus, my vision was totally fucked up when I put them on. My eyes had to adjust to my glasses not being right on top of my eyes like my contacts were. I thought I was going to break my ass stepping off the curb going back to the car. The drive home was crazy. I felt like I might crash at any moment. Thankfully I made it home safely.

I think the glasses are decent. Not sure if they look good on my face though. My p's says it goes well with my skin complexion, but now that I have them and I'm wearing them, I think I gotta used to seeing myself with glasses again. Hopefully the ladies like them, or else it's back to being blind while I try to talk to them.

I would take some pictures of me with them on, but I need to get a haircut first.

Maybe tomorrow.




In related news, well, not really, but I finally did the impossible; something I haven't done since October of 2006. I finally went over my minutes! And not by just a couple, I went over by 144+! I forgot peak time minutes start back at 6 a.m., so I didn't pay them any mind while I was on the phone late at night/early morning. Thank goodness I only have until the 16th until my billing starts over. But, just to be safe, i added the person who made me go over to myfaves just in case another peak time conversation happens. I should have just given her my business number so that shit would have been free in the first place. But oh well, at least I was entertained while doing it.